Test 10

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at what point is it not behind but underneath? I am undeneath the tests. I've made my charts, arranged my instruments, but something else continues to duel or intercept. Also, I resent the screen. It is easier with yarn and cloth. You know what I mean.

The other night we saw a white-lined sphinx moth. Two of them. Yes, we had to look twice to determine that it was not a hummingbird. It looked human as well. The head appeared to be especially meaty and soft. I presume the outside of the moth is the hardest part. The exoskeleton. I am soft, but inside there is bone. This moth appeared to be soft inside and out. I felt its colors in my mouth

Test 9

Test 8

on why I am behind in the tests

one of the things that has suprised me is that the data collection is difficult. the learning curve is steep, and I most be focused and in possession of a sufficient amount of emotional energy if I want to ensure a certain level of accuracy or "truth." Although one of the things I'm finding is that truth or the feeling of truth is completely unreliable (of course, therefore more interesting, thus raising the stakes and producing an increased level of anxiety). It is difficult to be honest honest honest with each word, and it feels as though to scrutinize each thing, as though it were only a slip of paper held daintily in silver tongs, is sometimes so serious and profound that I want to cry and at other moments so absurd and ridiculous that I want to laugh. And so I try to record these feelings and impulses but perhaps it is like an x-ray of a magnet or guts -- the densities of these things fluctuate so.

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Today I saw three whales. I was in an airplane. The whales were in the ocean. The shadow of the plane skittered across.

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The next three poems will be coming later tonight. So far data collection is going well. There are plenty of words out there, though it occurs to me that a future study would include letters, sounds, glyphs, and gestures.

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testing 1

napowrimo

poems one and two will be posted here later today. this year the theme is animals and women and whether or not they are real.